So many emotions

I haven't blogged in awhile because I have been going through alot. My mom has been sick since the last Thursday of October. Finally on the 9th of Jan we found out she has cancer. She has small cell carcinoma of the left lung. She has been in and out of the hospital and finally got the answer. She spent last week in the hospital having all kinds of test ran (no cancer anywhere else) and started on Chemotheorpy(so far she hasn't been sick). She had 3 rounds Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. She doesn't have it again for 21 days. She is also having radiation. 5 days a week for 7 weeks. To top it off they have xrayed her and done 2 CAT scans on her since October and never has been detected, but the doctor in Albany used the same xrays and CAT scans the Americus hospital used and bam they saw it. So me being me called and asked the hospital here how can they see something you didn't and guess what their reply was....WE had new people working in radiology and new people reading them and I am sorry for the mishap but we fired that staff and have new experienced ones now and they would of caught it...SORRY FOR THE FREAKING MISHAP..WHAT THE HELL IS THAT..ITS NOT A GLASS GETTING KNOCKED OVER ITS MY MOTHERS LIFE...MISHAP..That made me so freaking mad. March 1, 2005 my father died and now my mother is fighting for her life...I am loosing my mind. I am running 2 households. I wake up clean and straighten my house start laundry and head to her house to do the same thing. Fix her breakfast and straighten up her house, care for her, I have a handicap sister, a baby, a husband, and myself to care for...I want to just scream how unfair it is. My daughter is fixing to be 2 and adores my mother..I swear she would choose her over my husband and myself any day of the week.
I just pray everything goes well and she goes into remission and gets better..I want my daughter to have many many memories with her and remember her herself and through stories I tell. They are like best friends..they are amazing to watch...