Tornado

Well as I said in my last blog a tornado came through on March 1st. It really tore up this town. It is really devistating to drive through our little community and see the Sumter County has been declared a disaster area signs everywhere. Our hospital is gone, along with all the little mom and pop shops down our streets, it tore Winn-Dixie apart, along with several convenience stores and other things. Total I believe there was around 560 homes hit, 200+ were majorly damaged and the rest minor. We had two deaths, which in itself is hard to believe. My house, goodness my house..We were sitting there watching Tv and the lights flickered, then of course went out, my husband had gotten up to get a candle, and heard it, proceeded to hell do you hear that, get in the bathroom. I grabbed Emily and started to run by the time my husband rounded the corner to my daughters room the windows were blowing out. How in the hell he got to the bathroom I will never know. Emilys bathroom is the only one with no windows. All the other rooms in my house have tons of windows. Emilys room has 14 windows wide and 4 high. All of them blew out, destroying everything in her room. Trees came through her windows. Another through my ceiling over my dining room table, and then through the ceiling in the other bathroom in our room. Total there was 6-7 trees on our house, then my poor car..it never had a chance 2 hit it..Thankfully I had just put pups to bed (their crate) and that saved them because there was no way I could of grabbed them and Emily. One tree came across the ceiling in the living room where they were but it didnt come through the ceiling like the rest...it just cracked the ceiling. The roof..looked liked someone just stood over it and beat it til it feel in..I swear in that 3-4 minutes that was the most damage my eyes had ever seen and ever cares to see again. Emily has PTSD diagnosed on the 3rd. She refuses to sleep alone, which she has never slept with me not even as a baby, I always wanted her to sleep in her room. I didn't want to have to break her from sleeping with me once Darrell came home from Iraq or when she was older. Now she is in bed with me just to fall alseep. She was and still is but getting better with baths..she was at one point screaming anytime she walked near the bathroom. When we drive through town she says "Tees (TREES) bad Tees, mama why tees so bad." Heartbreaking...
Well got to finish up some final exams Chat more later..take care everyone..

March 1st just isnt my day

2005 March 1st my dad passed away. 2006 March 1, 2007 Tornado hit my town. I lost my house and one of my cars but we are still breathing breath, and thats all that matters. I don't have access to a computer unless I am at school and here I am trying to get my finals done for this quarter. I just wanted you all to keep us, my family in your prayers. We have been living in a hotel until this pasted week I moved in with my mother and my husband went to Albany to stay with friends since he works there anyway. He will be home on the weekends and since space is limited at my moms we are staying in a hotel when he is here. All my critters made it through but my town lil ole home...is destroyed. The president actually came here..Guess what he said..let habitat rebuild us since this was where it was founded...yeah right..but I can't write anymore gotta take another test.
Will put up some pictures and post more later.
Take care...

My rambling..mother and third ID

Been awhile since I have been on here...but I finally got a breather.. Mama is doing alot better. Her chemo isn't making her sick, what weight she had lost she has regained. She is tired on the days she has chemo and maybe a couple of days later. Monday is the day we find out how well the chemo is working. I hope and pray all is going well. I am nervous about that appointment. But we have got to go and we got to know. It absolutely scares me that I may loose my mother. My father passed away March 1, 2005 and that was hard for me. I was 8 mths pregnant and my husband was in Iraq. My mother was my rock and I was hers. We have always been close but that made us so much closer. She was in the room with me when I had my daughter..by c-section..She has always been there for me..and now I just need to be there for her and be her rock. I had cancer in 05 and she never left my side. I didn't need chemo after it was all said and done but she never left me. I have been at her house since this happen. I have cooked and cleaned and hung out and we have got out and about lately because here the weather is getting alot better. Yesterday it was 80 and today it was in the upper 70's. I am just taking in every moment savering it and enjoying it.

Well on another note..Third ID is heading back to Iraq soon. They have a very limited time left here in the states. My husband was in the army for 10 years and made 2 tours with these guys in Iraq and 1 before the war started to Quwait. My hubby got out but alot of his friends are still in..I am worried about them. There are so many that have already lost their lives there and I know alot more will it just breaks my heart to think of the saddness and hell the families go through. Its hard seeing on the news 5 or 6 soldiers, marines, got killed but knowing the ones who get killed is so damn hard. I hope and pray they all come back home safe and sound.. Thanks for all that you do for us and thanks for fighting for us and keeping us free. I love you all for the sacrifices you make and the sacrifices your families make tooo..It is hard being a soldiers wife .Man that makes me think of that soldiers wife song by Roxie Dean. It is so beautiful. I need to figure out how to upload it on here so you guys can hear it..but I am slow at learning the computer mumbo jumbo.

Well I need to go..I am going to relax..and head to bed..take care..catch up again soooon..maybe I wont ramble so much next time..yeah right.

So many emotions

I haven't blogged in awhile because I have been going through alot. My mom has been sick since the last Thursday of October. Finally on the 9th of Jan we found out she has cancer. She has small cell carcinoma of the left lung. She has been in and out of the hospital and finally got the answer. She spent last week in the hospital having all kinds of test ran (no cancer anywhere else) and started on Chemotheorpy(so far she hasn't been sick). She had 3 rounds Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. She doesn't have it again for 21 days. She is also having radiation. 5 days a week for 7 weeks. To top it off they have xrayed her and done 2 CAT scans on her since October and never has been detected, but the doctor in Albany used the same xrays and CAT scans the Americus hospital used and bam they saw it. So me being me called and asked the hospital here how can they see something you didn't and guess what their reply was....WE had new people working in radiology and new people reading them and I am sorry for the mishap but we fired that staff and have new experienced ones now and they would of caught it...SORRY FOR THE FREAKING MISHAP..WHAT THE HELL IS THAT..ITS NOT A GLASS GETTING KNOCKED OVER ITS MY MOTHERS LIFE...MISHAP..That made me so freaking mad. March 1, 2005 my father died and now my mother is fighting for her life...I am loosing my mind. I am running 2 households. I wake up clean and straighten my house start laundry and head to her house to do the same thing. Fix her breakfast and straighten up her house, care for her, I have a handicap sister, a baby, a husband, and myself to care for...I want to just scream how unfair it is. My daughter is fixing to be 2 and adores my mother..I swear she would choose her over my husband and myself any day of the week.
I just pray everything goes well and she goes into remission and gets better..I want my daughter to have many many memories with her and remember her herself and through stories I tell. They are like best friends..they are amazing to watch...

Dilemma

I just read someones blog about kids making christmas cookies..sounds fun..actually am thinking of getting some of my friends and their kids together to that...The tree is up and the shopping is done..but now there is a dilemma..At my husbands school where he works (bootcamp to reform kids who have been either in trouble or help them with grades) there is 2 families who can't afford Christmas and I have been trying to get a church or some of these groups around here to adopt them and I just can't find anyone to take on this family. Together there is 10 children ranging between 5-15....I already planned on buying the dinner for them..and one of my moms friends owns a resturant where they smoke hams and turkeys during the holidays and well they offered to give both families a turkey so I just have to get all the trimmings...now..the 10 kids..I am in hopes that the Kiwanis club here helps they helped get the single soldiers baskets for when they came home from Iraq. They came up with all kinds of stuff for them. I approached them last week and they will be letting me know about it this week, keep your fingers crossed for me. I can't bare the thought of these kids not having Christmas but even if I take them all on and buy for them all it still not gonna be the Christmas they desire because I can't afford to get them all a bunch of stuff a piece...I can get them some stuff but you know they want more than a couple of gifts but a couple is better than none..Dinner and a couple of gifts is better than they had last year one of the mothers told me that last year they had corndogs and no presents..so I am guess that even if I find no help for them what i can do is better than nothing..The other mother is a single mother of 4 boys and her husband just got up one day and walked out on her she never had a job and she basically works for minimum wage and can barely survive..
Its just weird for me because growing up I never had to worry were anything was coming from it was just always there. Not like I didnt know this existed but I have never known anyone to go through it.

Been awhile

Well its been awhile since I have been on here and even read someones blog muchless wrote on this one. My mother had to have surgery and things went alot better than expected. No cancer but still she can't talk. They are saying that acid reflux is what is doing this to her and its just hard for me to believe. She is starting to sound better just a higher whisper though. Then of course the next day was Thanksgiving and I cooked. A ham, turkey, dressing, butterbeans, broc casserole, collards (for my mother), cream style corn that we actually shucked and took off the cob(and of course had in the freezer),cornbread, german choc cake, and 3 pies, with a few other sides...way to much for me to be cooking on my first thanksgiving cooking..but oh well..it was fun and actually turned out great..everyone seemed to enjoy the food and company..so it was great..this year was great because last year my husband was home he was in Iraq. It was wonderful having everyone there...Emily was into everything that day though. typical 19mth old..It was the first holiday since emily was born that the entire family was together..last year my husband and my little cousin were both in Iraq..and this year...they are all home..next year..different story....can't look at next year just need to look at right here right now...enjoy the time and make wonderful memories.....
Well I am sick..bronchitis..so I am off to bed....

blah blah blah

Today wasn't so bad, just had to many emotions flowing through my mind for one day. I got up this am and got Emily ready to go to Nana's my mothers and I had to go to the dentist. I think maybe because I had an hour drive I had plenty of time to analyze everything and anything. I thought of some stupid stuff, stuff i didn't need to think about and then my mother and what I am going to be told next week. Yet again I can't stop thinking of it or worrying what is going to happen. My monster in law called me just to bitch about my sister in law Like I am getting in that one. They are both the wicked witches of the North. Best for me to keep my mouth out of it because they are both just wrong. Oh lets not forget the downpour we had today that I was out driving in. My husband was pretty good tonight he actually helped me with dishes and straighten up the house...strange..usually can't get him to do much...My daughter didn't want to leave my mothers house this evening...I hate carrying her out screaming nana nana but my mother can't keep her over night I was worried about a few hours. My daughter loves her so much..when emily was born my husband was in Iraq and my father had just passed so I moved in with my mom to help us both get through a rough time. My daughter and her bonded so much during that time...oh well i have rambled enough about my blah day....