One hell of a couple days

When you think it can't get any worse it does. First, off me, my daughter, and my husband are all sick. My mother is having to have surgery next Wednesday. The doctors are doing some sort of biopsy on her to find out if she has cancer. She is having whatever its called when they go down your throat and check for acid reflux and when they went down her nose they saw something so they are biopsing that. So, she sat me down yesterday and gave me the if I die speak what I better do and not do. Which got me to thinking of my father. He gave me the if I die speak about 2 months before he died last year. So, that has me thinking and my mind working a million miles an hour. Then you have my daughter crying because she doesn't feel good and my husband saying "baby can you get me something to drink." Gosh like I feel so great myself. My nerves are all balled up in a ball and my throat hurts, got a fever, earache..hell everything hurts. I just want everything to be okay. I can handle a cold but loosing my father is still hard on me 20mths later. I miss him. I miss the talks, the jokes, the way he used to try to tell me what to do in a round about way, the hugs, the love yous, i miss walking in the house and seeing him laid out snoring on the counch with all the dogs piled on top of him. I am not so sure I can emotionally handle what might be told to me next week. But if, which i pray it is, good news, its the day before Thanksgiving....Right now isn't a good time for me to be sick I have to much on my plate to deal with. How do you do it, do you just not worry until you know, do you start before and be thankful later....Well its late and my meds are kicking in I am off to bed....